It wasn't until the last two years that i finally was put on medication. This is just a little clip from my diary, when i started on the meds, it was really hard for me to adjust. i had been depressed for so long, loneliness, and sadness, was all i knew. The darkness, and all my pain where my friends, as sick and twisted as that sounds, its true. Maybe theirs others of you out there who can relate to me too?? In a way, it's like all the pain, and guilt, hate, and shame, was like a drug, an addiction, all of it's own... i didn't want to forget how it felt
so for me to say, " I want to stay in love with my sorrow" that's how i really felt at the time, it was sopowerful, the feeling i mean. To say your "in love" with something. It was a sick, and twisted love...but it was hard to let that go. But it was consuming everything i was, and the medication gave me a breath of fresh air, an escape from deaths lurking shadows. I finally felt, FREE!!..... Like a free'd bird from a cage, i was free to fly again, after being a prisoner to myself, for so long...)
"A cemetary surrounded by a graveyard fence, envokes a sense of claustrophobia, as does veiling, masking, and corsetry."
These and other dolls for sale by Basket. Click on her link to the right to see more creepy dolls! Also visit the owners website to find more of the items pictured here, a MUST SEE!! That link is to the right as well, The Gothic Tea Society.
Ceramic baby hands salt & pepper shakers $35.00 at etsy.com
Ceramic legs to go with your hands. LOVE these!! $40.00 at etsy.com
The best of both worlds!! A coffin and a tufted couch!! SWEET!!!
My baby!!! From my personal collection. Early 1900's Victorian Parlor couch in amazing condition!! The detailing in the wood work is simply timeless!! Long flowing bows and flowers. Complete with original wooden wheels!! HEAVEN!!!
Caitlin is currently a funeral home director in Los Angeles,CA. Her journey began a year after college when she applied to crematories in attempt to put into practice her theoretical death interests. Since her first job as a funeral arranger she has worked as a crematory operator, a body van transport driver and then later returned to school for her degree in mortuary science.
You can visit her website at www.theorderofthegooddeath.com or on youtube at "Ask a Mortician."
Oh Yeah!! who says you can't go out in style??!! That's one sweet ride!!!