My alter ego...Emily the strange...

Look I had the bangs and everything!!! LOL!

Mom always said I was a lil differant, a lil strange...

the quite, loner child, who's only friends were her stuffed animals...

    

Poems by yours truly...

"Black is the core of my heart.

Sadly i walk through this terrifing reality,

until childhood fears rid me of my inner peace.

Darkness, Darkness, Darkness.

Thou art my salvation!"

- Sarah Saguilan

"I want to stay in love with my sorrow

don't wanna forget how it feels

here in the darkness i know myself

can't break free until i let it go..."

- Sarah Saguilan

( I suffer with depression, i have my whole life.

It wasn't until the last two years that i finally was put on medication. This is just a little clip from my diary, when i started on the meds, it was really hard for me to adjust. i had been depressed for so long, loneliness, and sadness, was all i knew. The darkness, and all my pain where my friends, as sick and twisted as that sounds, its true. Maybe theirs others of you out there who can relate to me too?? In a way, it's like all the pain, and guilt, hate, and shame, was like a drug, an addiction, all of it's own... i didn't want to forget how it felt

so for me to say, " I want to stay in love with my sorrow" that's how i really felt at the time, it was so powerful, the feeling i mean. To say your "in love" with something. It was a sick, and twisted love...but it was hard to let that go. But it was consuming everything i was, and the medication gave me a breath of fresh air, an escape from deaths lurking shadows. I finally felt,  FREE!!..... Like a free'd bird from a cage, i was free to fly again, after being a prisoner to myself, for so long...) 

"A cemetary surrounded by a graveyard fence, envokes a sense of claustrophobia, as does veiling, masking, and corsetry."

Crows significance:

A guide from darkness to light

or

Guidence while walking in the shadows...

                       "This is who i am inside,

       fighting all these years, 

 to see who i've really become...

tourtured by my depression

a captive of my demons

can't get these voices out of my head

something waits for me on the other side.

Now i can't run and hide...

Slowly fading away

the poisen running through my veins,

how many times have i done this to myself?

Nothing but numbness inside,

I don't feel the pain amymore.

Can't make this feeling go away,

but i can't stop now...

the power is so overcoming,

the rush and high, soon fade away...

and now im left in the darkness

alone again..."

- Sarah Saguilan

ZOMBIES!!!!!!!

Black friday at Walmart gone bad.... lol!!!

The Bride and Groom to be...

Awww little zombie sally wants to play, who will come and play with her???

Who said blood and gore is not HOT??!!

Rob Zombie....who dosen't love him?!

This would be my son, "look at my pet zombie mommy!"

ME!!!!***

Creepy Dolls

Isn't she cute!?! I must have her!!

These and other dolls for sale by Basket. Click on her link to the right to see more creepy dolls! Also visit the owners website to find more of the items pictured here, a MUST SEE!! That link is to the right as well, The Gothic Tea Society.

Ceramic baby hands salt & pepper shakers $35.00 at etsy.com

Ceramic legs to go with your hands. LOVE these!! $40.00 at etsy.com

It's raining tufted couches!!!

The best of both worlds!! A coffin and a tufted couch!! SWEET!!!

My baby!!! From my personal collection. Early 1900's Victorian Parlor couch in amazing condition!! The detailing in the wood work is simply timeless!! Long flowing bows and flowers. Complete with original wooden wheels!! HEAVEN!!!

Beautiful Brown

Dreamy white

Calming blue

Enchanting grey

Seductive red

Royal purple

Stunning gold

Sunny yellow

Electric green

Mortician Caitlin Doughty!!!

Caitlin is currently a funeral home director in Los Angeles,CA. Her journey began a year after college when she applied to crematories in attempt to put into practice her theoretical death interests. Since her first job as a funeral arranger she has worked as a crematory operator, a body van transport driver and then later returned to school for her degree in mortuary science.

You can visit her website at www.theorderofthegooddeath.com or on youtube at "Ask a Mortician."

Oh Yeah!! who says you can't go out in style??!! That's one sweet ride!!!